Remember high school? I know. It sucked for me too.
Forget that part.
What’s the most iconic image of high school… the one they show in all the movies?
The hallway scene, right? Remember that long hallway… littered with lockers and elbow to elbow teenagers?
Your body is like that hallway of lockers, but instead of books and notebooks and whatever the hell else you stored in those lockers, your body stores emotions. Some of us store them in our legs. Others hang on to those emotions in our knees or hands, wrists, hearts, stomachs, etc.
My trouble spot was my lower body, specifically my legs. I had an angry childhood. That anger got stored away in my legs and I broke my ankles 3 times before I was 15.
When I was 15, I had a major incident playing soccer and tore my ACL, MCL, and ruptured cartilage in my right knee. That was it for soccer, but it was just the beginning of the trauma ruling my life. That lasted another 25 years, until i learned how to find that trauma, connect with it, and finally, let it go. And it’s done through a process I call Amo Ni.
Amo, in Spanish, means “I love”. Ni, in Chinese, means “you”.
So, Amo Ni directly translates into I LOVE YOU. I think it’s a pretty fitting name for a system that helps you discover who you really are buried under all the trauma you’ve used to mitigate life up until the point where you’re reading this message.
Where Do We Store Trauma?
According to her book, Inner Alignment Soul Retrieval for Healing Childhood Trauma, Kimberly Beekman list six different “bodies” where we store emotional reactions a.k.a. trauma. They are the physical, energetic, mental, emotional, awareness, and bliss bodies.
You thought things were simpler, didn’t you?
I remember a conversation I had with my dade about a decade ago. I was frustrated AGAIN that things hadn’t been working out. I was talking to him and trying to connect the dots, like “if I do ABC, I should be getting DEF.”
He said one thing that’s stuck with me for a long time: “Not everything is black and white, son.”
I vehemently denied what he was saying, but his wisdom outshined my ignorance and still does to this day.
The Biggest Emotional Lockers
From my own experience, the biggest storage bins I’ve found lie in the physical, emotional, and energetic layers, or as Mrs Beekman asserts… bodies.
Ever heard the term embody? Sure you have. We embody emotions, experiences, “take things on”, “shoulder the responsibility”, and work to get the monkey off our back. All of these are cute ways of saying the things we feel have a direct impact on our physical bodies.
I live in Taiwan. There are several older people in the neighborhood who walk bent at the waist with their upper bodies parallel to the ground, literally bent over. Think that’s just bad posture? Think again.
Ever seen an older person whose hands or feet are mangled, curled, and knotted? Worry does a lot more to the body than we give it credit. And if that’s what it’s doing on the inside, imagine what’s happening on the inside.
You don’t have to stretch your imagination too much. Take a peek at the hospital parking lot next time you drive by. Hotel chains have suffered dramatically from the fall in tourism during the COVID pandemic over the last couple of years. You’ll never hear a hospital CEO complain of falling occupancy rates.
Emotions and Energy
In the Amo Ni system of emotional discovery and release, we use muscle testing to find the emotional reactions or the trauma you’ve anchored in your physical, energetic, and emotional bodies.
As far as severity, the energetic anchors are usually the heaviest, whereas the emotional anchors tend to be the most prevalent.
Think of the emotional anchors like cuts and scapes, and the energetic anchors more akin to broken bones.
I grew up in the 70s in a small town in Eastern North Carolina. We had a big backyard and enough friends to field two teams of any sport we wanted to play. If I didn’t have a bump, bruise, or scrape on my body, something was amiss. We all constantly put our bodies through the wringer and had the badges of honor to prove it.
Your subconscious does the same thing. From the time you’re born… actually, not long after you’re conceived, the subconscious grabs onto everything it can get its sensors on. Everything coming in through your mom’s belly, then once you’re out in the real world, everything that tickles one of your six senses. Yes, I said six. There are probably more than that.
Sight, smell, touch, taste, hearing, and feeling (not the physical kind). Personally, I’d divide feelings into emotional and energetic feeling. What’s the difference?
How much do you enjoy stories?
Ever been in a room when other people are arguing? Not fun, is it? You can feel the anger. The tension is palpable. That’s emotional feeling.
Here’s your story:
About 10 years ago, I rode a bicycle across America. I did it on a shoestring budget. Most nights I camped. In fact, I didn’t even camp. I had a hammock I strung between trees, and that’s how I slept. Prior to that ride, I had cycled through several southeast Asian countries, too. Funny thing is, I felt safer there than I did in America.
Anyway, when I hung my hammock, I looked for safe places to sleep. Churches and graveyards seemed like good places. Both have a shroud of respect people tend to honor.
When I got down to Natchez, Mississippi, I decide to ride a ways up the Natchez trace. If you’ve never heard of it, look it up. It’s fucking gorgeous. It’s a national parkway that stretches from Mississippi all the way up to Tennessee. It’s a road, and that’s all. No stores. No nothing. Just beautiful country.
At that point, I had changed to riding at night. The days were unbearable to ride in. Down there, the temps were in the 100 and TEENS. The last day ride I made was just north of the Louisiana/Mississippi border and the temp that day was 117.
So, I get on the Natchez trace at night around 9pm. One of the first stops I came to was a little parking lot with signs talking about the Trace and some sights along the way. I followed a sign pointing to the first school in Mississippi. A trail wound through the woods and after, maybe 50 yards, opened up to a wooden picket fence. A little building maybe the size of a trailer sat in the distance.
Remember, it was late at night. It was pitch black. I had a flashlight with me, but that was it.
At this point, I had already been sleeping in graveyards and been accustomed to spooky sights and sounds at night. I felt like I belonged in that world by that point… until my skin crawled that night. I remember the feeling as clear as when it happened that night. Goosebumps ran up my arm, shoulder, and up my neck, then spread through my whole body.
That, my friend, is energetic feeling. I did a podcast interview this year with a gentleman by the name of Kyle Yates. he’s a ghost hunter and he’s all too familiar with that energetic feeling.
Remember what my dad said? “Life’s not all black and white, son.”
No, it sure isn’t. There’s a rainbow of colors and probably thousands of others we can’t even comprehend.
Finding and Removing Trauma
There are plenty of ways to find trauma, including:
- singing bowls
- tuning forks
- basket weaving
- simple living/intentional living/slow living
- skipping rocks
- and any other activity where you quiet the mind and let go of the routine
With most of these techniques, you’re slowing down, connecting, and “hoping”/waiting for results.
What resonates with me most about the Amo NI system is that it’s active.
Imagine a crime scene: As soon as a crime gets reported, the police come in, tape off the area, and get to work looking for clues that will eventually lead them to their suspect.
That’s exactly how the Amo Ni system works.
Muscle testing locates the clues. We use conscious awareness through physical awareness, mental records,and emotional feelings that arise as we dig. We then use corresponding release points on the body to connect with and dislodge the emotions, as well as the Amo breath (Check out the FREE Amo Breath Training), which also helps in the connection and dislodging process, as well as serving as an emotional reset that occurs as you stimulate the vagus nerve through the middle part of the breath. We then use NLP to grease the wheels of intention and send you further down the path of your hopes and dreams.